June's bits and pieces of my life

2nd June: My textbook became a sketch book for MrCheerfulside.

8th June: Got my "Create your own Tumbler" from Starbucks! Gonna put Candice on it! ;)

13 June: Just removed my favourite nail polish! It's Matt! *Sobs* Can only be found in HK, according to Shuxin. Imma hunt it down! Thanks Shuxin for letting me use it one last time!

27 June: Jason Lam trying to cover his shirt stain from lunch with correction fluid LOL!!

29 June: Class doodles on the whiteboard! We were writing our names to be in line to get our work marked so that we can leave tha class ASAP!! 

Trouble always comes in a mush, don't they?

I've been told about this a lot of times but i never thought that it'll happen so soon. My mom was like "I'll find somewhere to stay, Nicholas will probably go to Jinde's or one of his friends' place to stay then you'll ask your friends if you can stay at their place for awhile."

I was like 'what?!' in my mind. The only ones that might have space for me to stay, I'm not so close to them/ they are guys so my mom probably wouldn't allow it. And I don't wanna burden Abbey by staying at her place since even though her house is kinda big but if I did go over it'll be too crowded. Maryanne's place isn't a good idea too cause she's hosting her dad's friend's daughter Chloe. 

Why is all this happening now when I have so much to take care of? I have to tutor a little girl, Phyu Phyu, on Saturday mornings, and I have more ballet trainings now cause I'm taking exams this August/September. Plus, i have to set out time to really start studying properly to pull up my GPA.. 

How am I supposed to accomplish all this when suddenly, all the odds are against me?! I wasn't even really prepared for this! Suddenly everything starts going down so quickly, I don't even have time to think through for the best solution :'(

My mom did say "or the 2 of you can stay here first while I find a place then we'll move out after that."

So now, if I have to come home late no one will be there to fetch me, like after my trainings at night and I'll have to set a side a few hours every week for house work which my brother will probably not help out most of the time... I turning into a weekend maid! I don't mind... Since its my laundry but I HAVE NO TIME!

What did I do to deserve all this?! Is being fat and ugly and not tall with no talents or smarts not good enough??? And it's not like im not putting in effort at all to tone up. 

And to add on, I have work over the next few days yay

And for a scandal to really blow up, all it needs is an unexpected turn. - Gossip Girl

Okay this isn't a scandal, but it was an unexpected turn of events.
And I just thought it suits the episode (Ep13) where Chuck and Nate stepped on each other's toes so :)

Booked out of camp at 9-ish this morning. I know its really early, like right after Day 1. Some things cropped up, so all of us left camp today except Charles.

Really worried about N and J, they fought right after the coordinator told us to close our station but the rest of the nightwalk station was still going on (there was only 3 of us at our station and we planned it). Can't say the whole situation out here since its really supposed to be private even though everything happened right before my eyes.

But from my point of view and from whatever I could recall, J was really not being reasonable when he was trying to back up his actions. From what I saw, he really didn't kept his word and was just kinda making excuses that he did kept his word.

Kind of complicated. Have never seen them so angry before and I was really so afraid that one of them was gonna throw the first punch. really super lost. After that they told me to join another station while they go somewhere else to 'settle' it. When J left and N came to talk to me after receiving my text. I've never seen anyone so sad in my life, so sad that he had no more tears but to laugh it off.

Really hate seeing friends become like this, I feel I should talk to J since I witnessed everything so my judgement should be more accurate than what they tell others. But I'm afraid that the blur-bimbo me will just make things worse. Or might even make J think that I'm ungrateful and seem biased.

I should really take some time to think through what to say when I see J in school when school starts.. 

Other than this, I made some friends i guess? More like acquaintance? I don't know, I guess if you have talked to them some what, and they call your name, which proves they know who you are then you're friends already right? Maybe not close friends but just hi-bye-ish friends? That's not too bad :)