Thank You 2013

So the year is coming to an end. And I'd like to say a few words..(Chey sounds like an awards show LOL!!)

Back to Earth, I just want to thank, Candice Swanepoel ( I bet you're like, "yeah totally saw that coming girl! NEXT!"), for like being a guiding star! Like honestly, whenever I'm in doubt, I'd ask myself " What would Candice do?" or "What would Candice say?" HAHAHAHA!! SO yeah, that saved me from making a lot of huge mistakes that I'll regret for life. This I think only Iggy, Zihui, Fanggy and my Mom would understand what I meant.
And for keeping up my motivation to exercise. I've never been this motivated to keep up with exercising for this long and I still am! Motivated now because of her. Whenever I feel like giving up, I think of Candice and what she would say or do and that keeps my spirits up. So yes, thank you for being a great role model for me Candice.

I also want to thank my Mom for putting up with all my teasings and my sometimes irresponsible self. For always forgiving me when I make her angry. And also for listening to my Candice Niang Niang stories hahahha! (LOL, inside joke that only a few knows)

Thank you the Slutz for always being there for me and putting effort to keep or friendship going. Everyone's coorperation is so important. Thanks for keeping me grounded, reminding me of who I am even when y'all don't know it.
Thank you Zihui especially for listening to all my rants and fitness problems lol and other umm guys problems and also encouraging me on my journey to be more active in exercising.
Thank you Iggy, Gabriel and Karen for giving me advice, well sort of, and sort of waking me up from my crazy crushes LOL!
Thank you Rita and Wan'er for making the period at the end of the year super fun! Finally hangout with you guys more now that you're in Uni!

Thank you Xinfang and Zihui for always listening to my umm stupid-crushes-stories, helping me get ready for social night, that was super nerve wrecking uh! I gained so much intern weight and the shipyard really gave me bad complexion. I was a mess! And also Xinfang for helping me with my school work. Actually, you girls help me with every problem I have under the Sun. LOL. Suddenly I sound like I have a lot of problems :P

Thank you Maryanne for putting up with my carelessness, I know I can be a jerk like I mix up our plans and everything. I will do better. And most importantly, thanks for being brave enough to tell me my flaws straight in my face even if it stings, and sharing with me all your beauty tips and secrets and the cool apps and items and deals you found out.

Thank you my Keppel Kids for going through thick and thin together, I will never forget the joy we created in the midst of some of the most horribly boring days LOL. 5 months doing the same routine is no joke. I can't imagine how people do it for years. The "Offenders will be Fine" joke. And the best life lesson we took back "Life isn't always easy". motivational poster. Thank you guys for making my poly classroom, class-life everything, THE BEST. If I got a chance to go back in time and have the choice be in a different course of study, I'd still do the same. Thanks to you guys I feel really lucky.

Thank you KCH for always being there to keep my day going with all our random daily conversations, especially throughout the period after my intern. Love you guys!

Thank you Ray, Matt, Eugene and Jin Wei for being the best BBQ Buddies!

Thank you Joyce, Nurul, Ashley and Eve for taking good care of me while I was working at VS. Joyce for always looking out for me, making sure I won't get bullied. Nurul for taking care of me while I was posted to MBS branch for awhile and encouraged me when I did well. Also for helping me get my cheque when I was inconvenienced due to my school commitments. Ashley for just taking on the role of a Mother. Eve for making sure I could get used to the culture, especially on my first few days of work.

Thank you 2013 for being so eventful albeit shitty at times LOL, like when I gained a ridiculous amount of weight. There must be a reason why this year felt like it's gone in a flash, LITERALLY, I could still remember myself lying sick on the sofa for 2012-2013 New Year's celebration, being sponged by Zihui like it was yesterday.
For some reason, a lot of this year's highlights are pretty much still fresh in my mind. So yeah, I guess the easiest answer is that this year was a great year. Let 2014 be an equally great, if not greater, year! :D

Merry Christmas!

 

Merry Christmas Everyone!

It's just approx 30 mins past midnight :) Came back from a day of last minute shopping with Maryanne and Anthony for Nicholas' (Maryanne's boyfriend) present. Walked all of Orchard Road again! Last night's mission was quite fail but at least Anthony found his girlfriend's gift. :D

Then I went for some ice skating with my little cousins! It's kinda becoming a tradition to ice skate with them. They seem to be the only people in my life who are enthusiastic enough to want to skate with me and enjoy it as much as myself. That is, besides Abbey and Eileen and Zamzam. But Eileen's attached and she and Zamzam get into quarrels so suddenly so it's a bit unpredictable and hard to plan an ice skating meet up with them. Most of the times they're also busy. Oh well.

Anyway, after ice skating, had a nice dinner with the big family and here I am, home with my feet so sore it feels like I'm walking without any flesh. YUCKS, but I kinda like it haha! Felt like I worked hard, and am still contemplating about whether to get Kayla's book. Cuz now I'm even more tight on cash since I need to save up for my graduation trip to Seoul with my class! 

Just a thought: Was thinking the other day, what would be the must do activity on my to-do list if I ever get to go to New York to study/work/stay they for a year or more? Besides meeting Candice hehe! It's ofcourse to get Justin Gelband to be my trainer MUAHAHAHAHAHA! Probably gonna burn a hole in my pocket, but I'm willing to let it burn :p

Yay received my new Nike Free Run 3.0! Haha! It's the same colour but 1 size up!

Was lucky enough to find a Carouseller who had the right size. Initially when I bought from Gmarket it it only had like the just nice fitting size, which was my regular flats size 39. But for my sports shoes only I usually wear size 40, at least for Nike shoes. So yup!

And I realized one of the review was right, the Gmarket one indeed was an imitation! I did some "investigation" and observation lol, and turns out it was truly fake. >.< But it was like really well made imitation lol. To think I ran so many miles with that lousy shit hahah!

Anw, I'm happy cuz now I can use that lousy shoe to protect my feet when I jump rope at home YAY! No more smacking my nail-less second toe! Yay to less painful jump roping! ^^

HIIT Sprints

Okay so I haven't been running since 4th Dec?
Illumi Run didn't count cuz it was more like Illumi WALK??? Everyone was literally walking and blocking the way WTF.

And there was CTs too. So yea today I decided to try something new, what my brother, Maryanne and Eugene had been telling me to do, even Iggy! Which was to do the interval training shit, my brother said to sprint 100m and rest for a few secs then then sprint 100m by 100m round the 800m track beside my house once. So yea I did!

ANDDD..

IT WAS FUCKING KILLING ME!!! Like WTF! Okay I think I probably need to do it for like longer? Say 10-20 mins? Cuz honestly my legs weren't tired or feeling strained at all, maybe cuz I've rested my body for a week, but my heart was really BURSTING LAH! After that 1 round I was literally cursing "FML FML FML FML!!!" and then i just ran 1 more round without the intervals and went home to do my other workouts. I AM NEVER DOING THIS SHIT WTF, made me hate running even more =.=

Yay! Ran 5k this morning! Probably my last 5k before Illumi Run this weekend. It's my best timing yet! Somehow though I can't imagine myself running during the Illumi Run lol.

Suddenly realise that A LOT of people are into running LIKE HELLO?? YOU MAD? LOL Idk, I mean I don't hate it, but it's not something I'd LOVE hahaha! It's so hard to love it despite being consistent for more than a month now :( I'd choose swimming over running any day.

Which reminds me, I really need to get a swimming cap. Damn, I really should make that hairspray hahaha! Then I can earn the big bucks and at the same time not wear anymore swimming caps!

Hello December

Hello December. I bet you'll go by real quickly, its the same every year. December will end in a flash. Please be good to me this end of the year, I hope I can look a teeny bit better :( Ahh can't wait to stream the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show Live, Illumi Run and the end of CTs! Then I can finally watch rest of the episodes for The Heirs! :D AHHHH! Love Lee Minho so much! I kept asking my Mom if she could Fedex Lee Minho for me LOL.

What is this feeling?

No, seriously, what is this feeling I'm feeling right now? After what I found out.. Hmm..
To say I'm sad would be misleading, to say that I am embarrassed would be taking it too hard on myself and could complicate things further.. And to say I was at the losing end would be entirely untrue because in fact I proved to myself (and candice, LOL, keedz) that I can be better and stronger and on my way.. OK I AM GETTING OUT OF POINT! I always end up relating how Candice Swanepoel inspires me, LOL, I bet everyone is bored of my Candice talk by now... I don't really care, but okay, I'm starting again aren't I? OOPS? But how is it I couldn't sleep last night until the tears rolled out? I guess tears can mean anything.

Anyway yea.. I feel like I should never have gone, it wasn't supposed to be my night. I mean, his choice should be the one that matters first cuz it's his graduation social thingy.. Now I really hope the next time I won't be asked, it would be so embarrassing now I could go cuz his invitation was redirected to me instead.. It does hurt a little cuz its kinda embarrassing like, even though I accepted cuz I thought I was helping, but in fact the opportunity for me to help was not really given to me because it was supposed to be mine but rather it was someone else who gave it to me. Okay, am I even making sense here? Does anyone get me? hahah!

I like talking to myself like this lol. Helps me to organize my thoughts and move on eventually.

But honestly I'm just glad I had a reason to dress up and kick start my life long journey of trying to (even though I know it's really impossible cause I'm Asian) get a body like my idol Candice.S! haha! Yay me!

Anw yea, I finally took my NAPFA test yesterday!!! I Silver award yay! But they have yet to update my NPAL account :( I went without my classmates, was supposed to go with them again on the coming Monday but I was really skeptical about it raining on Monday cuz for 5 weeks of school I was able to go have my Monday morning runs and it will rain in the evening. 5 weeks of the same weather trend, what are the odds right? So yea, plus the weather yesterday evening was really breezy, dewy and clear for a run! So, I dragged myself there alone despite how exhausted I was due to lack of sleep.

Here are my scores:
Inclined Pull-ups: 11
Sit-ups: 50
Shuttle Run: 11.5s
Standing Broad Jump: 1st attempt - 169cm, 2nd attempt - 169cm :(
Sit & Reach: 46cm
2.4km Run: 15:54 min

Okay, so the tester actually told me that I could've stopped long a go but I wasn't notified cuz the system was slow and I kinda lost count so I actually ran a total of 7/6 laps??! =.="

So yea, although that's not my best 2.4 timing but I'm quite surprised that I came in below 16mins without my music player :D

My SBJ was disappointing but what ever, it still falls under grade D even if I did as well as on Wed. So yea haha!

My Sit & Reach was always A, so yea and I am always flexible.. So this just goes to show that my body isn't as long as what my friends say YAY! hahaha! Cuz you know normally if you could bend over with ur chest touching your thighs like mine you'd probably be getting >50cm for that station lol.

So yea, was a new experience going myself and with my class, cuz yesterday there were more BA, HMS and LSCT students? Meaning more girls. And man, are those girls competitive. But they are also very supportive of each other. Although you can really tell they feel insecure about themselves. It's like seeing a bunch of my younger self at ballet class LOL! Always saying something along the lines of "OMG i suck at this, I never did well in this but yea I guess it's fine, better than not trying right?" lol, like having to console myself and self motive AND hoping your friends get the hint to not judge you too harshly. #CONFESSIONSOFAGIRL

Yupyup, so after Napfa I went to have dinner at Sakae Sushi with Ruban and Charles (that's when I found out some little stuff that stirred up some weird feelings lol), and then some girls gave us free movie passes which expires at midnight so I invited Gabriel and Iggy to watch Captain Phillips (BEST SHOW MUST WATCH! Esp, my fellow Keppel interns!) with me since Rubz and Charles were tired.

NAPFA cancelled URGHHHH!!

So disappointed with the weather today! Urghhh!! Did all 5 stations and was ready to run my 2.4 and it had to rain =.= it's still raining right now, at 7:10pm they told us that the 2.4 was cancelled due to the rain so this means my results for my 5 items were void! Like wtf!!! A miracle happened today for my Standing Broad Jump! I actually managed to first jump 167cm on my first attempt, and 171 on my second! Like WHAT IN THE WORLD?! In the history of my napfa I have never once jumped further than 160cm please. I think once I did jump like 163cm but I think I cheated on that haha, otherwise I would at least be proud of it. I guess what Nas said was true, he comforted me by saying "don't worry la, on the day itself u will magically be able to jump one." And it was so true! Haha! I just told myself that I am gonna jump over the mat like my life depended on it, and pushed myself off like a frog lol and threw my how body forward haha! Anw, was glad that I finally overcame my fear of sbj, and I'm sure (okay I hope!) I can do it again now since I sorta did train for it. I jumped up the stairs like what Ponggy told me to do, until my toe turned black lol. So yeah there it was, anw I hope it doesn't rain next Monday otherwise I'd be so pissed!! My period is coming next week and I'm afraid I'd be too tired by the end of the sch day to take napfa so please don't rain on Monday please!!!

Here's my scores for the 5 stations today, I'm 19 years old this year:
Shuttle Run - 11.5s B
Sit Ups - 50 A
Sit & reach - 49cm A
Incline Pull up - 11 C
SBJ - 167cm & 171cm D

Besides the disappointing napfa experience, today is also Xinfang's birthday! Yeah, it was pretty shitty, I don't even wanna start talking about it. All I have to say is, Happy Birthday Xinfang! I hope you enjoyed yourself today and had a great time with your cousins. Sorry we failed as classmates after all you've done for us. Still I hope you'll find back your strength and feel better about yourself soon. Sucks to see you like this feeling so low..

This week just sucks altogether la, I purposely didn't run this morning like what my brother advised, to save my energy for Napfa and look! DIDN'T even run at all!! Now I'm getting the paranoid and stressed up feeling about running tmr evening! Ughhh hate this! I hate stressing myself over not running! :((

On a brighter note, I suddenly remember, Charmaine and Zhong Yi said I look good with my hair tied up. ZY said cause I look neater, wad?! Means I've been quite messy la hahaha! I rarely tie up my hair cuz I always thought I looked more round with my hair up haha and that's what some ppl say too. And I grew 1cm! We had to take height and weight and I am officially 165cm YAY!! Hahaha!

Pink Nike Free Run +3

So today was a rather tiring/sluggish day, I feel terrible after waking up, Wish I knew why, though it's not anything emotional. So anyway, I finally tried on my Neon Pnik Nike Free Run +3! My beautiful babies! <3 And then I waitied till it's 7pm to make an instagram birthday post for Candice cuz that's the time where New Yorkers would probably be up? Since it's 7am in the morning there? And she's based in New York now so I'm just assuming that on her birthday this year she'd be there haha! whatever, I am not a stalker so I wouldn't know, she could be anywhere on the globe cause of her job, she could very well be in Singapore and I wouldn't even know until she instagram/tweets about it :B

Moving on! I was supposed to meet the Slutz today but Wan'er and Rita couldn't make it since it was too rushed and they had stuff on, Karen could only meet us after 8pm+, Iggy couldn't be contacted and Gabriel didn't reply to anything until after I went out with my mom and after I accepted KCH's impromptu decision to have dinner after going out with my mom. So yeah, decided to re-schedule another meetup with Slutzys. Anyway, was great to see Ruban again after so long! Okay, we celebrated his birthday like 5 days ago but it felt long! Cuz he didn't come for tennis on thurday! And I met Abbey yesterday to go out with Xinfang. So it's really just left with him that I haven't saw since Wednesday. Anw, today was awesome haha! Putri loves the cute kitty iPhone dust cap I got her and Eugene wore the shirt leopard cub with glasses shirt I got him, both from Taiwan! Kinda disappointed that I couldn't find anything for most of my friends for this Taiwan trip, oh wells.

Haha! Hope he never sees this or else I'd be dead for sure, he's so camera shy and video shy and EVERYTHING SHY yet sarcastic =.=. Anyway  just wanted to show that I have good estimation of clothes sizing ahahahah! LOL. I estimated from the mannequin, not bad huh, someone has a mannequin physic! ;)
And sigh, I guess I really have to get better with my running cuz I'm really running too slow :(( My heart needs to be stronger, endure longer T^T Fight it Feli!

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY CANDICE!

Happy Birthday, Candice!

Time flies huh, this photo was taken in 2011 Victoria's Secret Swim Launch, and you're looking more stunning than ever! But you're also still as grounded and hardworking, a really great rolemodel :) Please stay, happy, healthy, safe, grounded, hardworking, smart, kind, beautiful and inspirational as always! <3

Can't wait to see you rock the runway again this December! :D

Flashback to one of last year's outfit <3

OMG!!! Motivation for tomorrow~

Reflection

So yea just wanted to reflect what I've done throughout the 3 month long holiday after intern. I guess the greatest accomplishment keeping myself motivated to exercise at least 3-4 times a week, and by that I mean I actually set my alarm clock to 9am or 10am (when I sleep quite late the night before or go out the previous day which is most days LOL), got my ass up and got out to the track to run and then back home to do Candice's workouts and Blogilates :D

I don't even know how I kept my motivation up (especially during the 3 weeks leading up to the Social Night where I workout everyday and up my workouts to 2 times a day from 2 weeks before the dinner LOL I was almost falling sick) cuz people usually get bored of their "motivation" or "inspiration" like they constantly change pictures of the girls with hot abs and stuff? Yeah, but I know one thing that remained constant for me was that in my head all I thought was Candice hahaha! Ok not tryna sound creepy but every time I felt like giving up I asked myself " what would Candice do?" "what would she say to you?" and I used what she used to motivate herself which was to tell herself " I'll feel better after a workout", and that's how it went I guess. Even when I was in Taiwan, I told myself 10 mins, even though some idiots might say " you might as well not do it" but I say no, even if it's 10 mins or 20 mins, it beats anyone sitting at the couch any day. And it beats feeling the guilt and discomfort of not getting some adrenaline rush. ;D Plus, once you start to exercise regularly, do you ever have that ticklish or itchy feeling like beneath your skin or flesh (or something, I'm not even sure myself) and like you try to scratch it and it doesn't go away until you actually got down to do some cardio and workout? Yeah that's Type 1 of the discomfort I feel. Type 2 is when I feel so bad like I've let myself down and I've let Candice down as her fan, I mean she'd want her fans to be kept motivated right? haha yea so I will reach a point that I cannot take the guilt and I will go do something, even skipping or whatever if I really "don't have time" and then I'll tell Zihui after how bad I feel that I only did a little bit and she'll still be there and never get sick of giving me encouragement. I love her, sweet baby angel <3 

And I'd also ask Xinfang for advice like how!!! (When I still felt so insecure during the Social Night thing, I don't wanna embarrass myself looking like shit and I wanna look my best) And she'd give me tons of suggestion. And I'm also glad that people can ride on my motivation haha! Like cause I'm so motivated by Candice (even down to when I eat I think of her, come to think of it I think, I think of her 24/7 hahaa whenever I'm not doing anything O.O what sorcery is this??! She even motivates me to play tennis better!), my friends are motivated by me seeing me motivated by Candice hahaha! Xinfang got a skipping rope cause I told her it's fun and works for me when I don't feel like running or swimming :D

Wow, I just vomit all of my thoughts out within minutes haha!

CANDICESWANEPOEL.COM

The year long wait was absolutely worth it. Today Candice finally relaunched her Official Website after I'd say nearly a year? Well, I can't exactly remember when but it was just so long ago. I know that for months my Google Chrome homepage had been flashing the words "CANDICE SWANEPOEL under construction". So YAY! No more plain, text-only Homepage :D I think the design is more modern, sleek and clean, I love it but I kinda still love the old design a teeny weeny bit more cuz it felt like the whole website was telling her life story on it's own even without any texts. Now it's nice, and professional but it does seem a little like a website related to the modelling agencies like IMG Models.

Royal Fantasy Bra

Just two days back Candice tweeted and Victoria's Secret announced that she's going to don this year's Fantasy Bra! Congratulations my beloved Candice! I knew your time will have to come already cause you're fresh, energetic and at your peak already! It is really about time to let you do your magic with the Fantasy Bra :D And I just realized, they let you reveal the secret just at the right time, cuz it's your 25th birthday tomorrow and now you can celebrate the good news and share the happiness at the same time! You're really one lucky Angel!

This year's Fantasy Bra seems, to me, like it's really designed just for Candice! I don't even know why they bother putting it on sale cause no one is ever gonna wear it like she does! She's an absolute Goddess! Although, it is true, the fact that it was moulded on her body, which makes me, all of a sudden, for once wish I was rich enough to afford it. Why? Because after the Fashion Show, if no one buys the piece, it will be dismantled and they will start working on the next year's Fantasy Bra already! Like hello?? And this bra is even more worth buying cuz it's moulded into Candice's body, it's like custom made already! You'll never find another person with the same body as hers no matter how hard they workout T^T (Not that I'm giving up, I won't unless Candice says to :p) I hope some one this year's bra so that when I'm rich enough in future I can buy it off their hands Teehee! ^^

Thankful

YAY! I feel so blessed, like I came to a realization today? haha! Okay, I guess I can be quite selfish :( Anw, blessed cause despite y'know not having my dream body, looks and no talents,etc etc, I still have friends who love me (okay actually I know this and that's why I tend to prioritize them more than my family.. OOPS? :0), and who're patient and willing to help me achieve what I want. So yeah, thanks Putri and Eugene for giving me advice on running and running with me. And also thanks Eugene, you could've went off and run with Charles but you paced with me (I know I was really slow throughout, Gosh you're like talking while I was dying trying to catch my breath. I wished I had started on my normal starting speed though, felt kinda weird starting slower)and encouraged and pushed me throughout so.. Thank you! I will try to push 1 or even 2 rounds more next time!

Back to School

Back from my run and exercise (can't believe I actually did it, I arrived home from the airport at 1 plus, 2am last night?? So you can imagine how many hours of sleep I had. I surprise myself a lot these days with how motivated I am by Candice LOL) , so I'm just gonna do a quick update cause I gotta go NOW!! To Auntie Regina's place to pass them the stuff from Taiwan (will post the photos up soon :D) and to school for 2 hours (ikr).

Oh right, today is Ruban's birthday so HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY RUBAN! <3 

We're celebrating his birthday later tonight and I'll put some photos up later~

Another Perspective

Today I came across this video from searching Candice Swanepoel as I know she's been promoting for VS swim collection so I was hoping to find some new interviews on talk shows etc, which I did find, but amongst the search results I found this video, which I suddenly felt really disturbed and sad and felt the pain that Candice had been going through, I thought I know most of the more major things in life she has to give up just for this jobs just for her good looks but no, there's still more. I knew of it but I didn't realise the impact it would have on her life and couldn't feel the real pain & anguish of having to live with it until now. She has to now keep wearing shades in public etc, she can't have peace while traveling despite already being tired out from work, despite probably being moody or just wanting to be alone in silence while traveling. But when she's "disturbed" by fans who'd like her autograph she still smiles and gently rejects if they get greedy for too many autographs. To think she's still trying her best to be in the best mood possible for her fans despite her tired out self. I would've already become cranky? If I were her, I'd suddenly feel like crying and I think that maybe this is not really the dream job I might want after all, but I do still love and want to look and be everything like you, Candice. You taught me so many things u didn't even know.

The Little Mermaid: Part Of Your World

I suddenly had this realisation today that, "Hey which Disney songs would suit me most?" I remember when I was in primary school I loved the song "Reflection" in Mulan, I could connect to it, the lyrics perfectly described me. It still describes me now, but not as well as "Part of your world" from The Little Mermaid. Every line of the song lyric describes what I feel, what I want,etc. I guess after my "explanation", this song could very well describe most of us. This is what I love about Disney, they can engage and connect to their audience regardless of age.

So I'll begin my umm "explanation" (?) on why it describes me here with each stanza..

Part of your World:

Look at this stuff

Isn't it neat?

Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?

Wouldn't you think I'm the girl

The girl who has everything?

Look at this trove

Treasures untold

How many wonders can one cavern hold?

Looking around here you think

Sure, she's got everything

I've got gadgets and gizmoz a-plenty

I've got whozits and whatzits galore

You want thingamabobs?

I've got twenty!

But who cares?

No big deal

I want more

Explanation:

The lines "Wouldn't you think my collection's complete? | Wouldn't you think I'm the girl | The girl who has everything?" and "Looking around here you think | She's got everything", is a reflection of my life, I may not be perfect but I am living a normal healthy life with great family and friends. Not having anyone who hates me, at least not that I know of or care about. I'm not a social outcast whatsoever. I really feel the love from all my friends, like they enjoy my presence :) I'm always seen as the bubbly and cheerful girl. Am really fortunate to have the Slutz, Keppel Kids, KCH kids, Maryanne, Aloysius in my life. And I'm contented with the opportunities I get and my parents try their best to give me what I want. So yeah, it seems like I'm a happy enough and fortunate girl right? Even though my family isn't that well to do, in a way, but I am still able to afford a lot of things and I am still able to get away with not doing house chores (yikes) despite not having a maid at home (poor mom). I could go on forever, the point is compared to my friends and how their parents treat them etc, I think I am really lucky. So yup, I have a lot of things, possibly more than everything. "But who cares? | No big deal | I want more". Since I live with "everything" that I have day to day, it kinda seem like no big a deal (I know it shouldn't be for granted but how many of us can actually live normally without wanting more and taking whatever we have now for granted? It's human nature). Despite all that, I want more, the things I want are pretty much things I will never have. But its inbuilt in us humans, the more rare/ unobtainable it is, the more we're attracted to it. Like, I want a physique like Candice's, tall ( taller by another 10cm, which I'll never be), her bones structure (genetically impossible), a face like hers (haha! But I don't want any surgeries so, impossible!). And my Dream Job, LITERALLY, is to be a mega supermodel but that's OBVIOUSLY not gonna ever happen and I know it, but it's a dream not a goal so don't judge me just yet. And also other things which seem more tangible(?) like, getting to work in the New York fashion industry, or VS Headquarters hehe! So yeah, I don't have the relevant um, qualifications, there aren't opportunities for a Singaporean like me, IT IS FREAKING RARE. Most importantly I don't have the creative juices, talent, exposure & CONFIDENCE.

I wanna be where the people are

I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'

Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?

Oh - feet!

Explanation: 

"I wanna be where the people are | I wanna see, wanna see them dancin' ", in my case the "people" would represent all the fashion related people, makeup artists, photographers, everyone from the front to behind-the-scenes. And "dancin' " would be seeing them work their magic~

Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far

Legs are required for jumping, dancing

Strolling along down a - what's that word again?

Street

Up where they walk, up where they run

Up where they stay all day in the sun

Wanderin' free - wish I could be

Part of that world

Explanation: 

This part is a giveaway, obviously I wish I could be part of that world, which seem so near yet so far out of my reach. Just like how the land and Prince Eric is to Ariel.

What would I give if I could live out of these waters?

What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?

Bet'cha on land they understand

Bet they don't reprimand their daughters

Bright young women sick of swimmin'

Ready to stand

Explanation:

"What would I give if I could live out of these waters? | What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?". The lines speak for themselves, I'm constantly asking myself what would I be willing to sacrifice that is equally precious to make the dreams that I hold dearly to me come true?

And ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers

What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?

When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that world up above?

Out of the sea

Wish I could be

Part of that world

Explanation:

This whole stanza literally explains everything. Will I ever get to live a life like that? (A life like Candice, obviously it's not gonna happen, it's my dream people! JUST a dream, stop judging. She's really too lucky, its hard to imagine, and I can understand why she says she still finds it hard to believe how all this happened to her. And she just feels like she's living someone else's life.)

After this post, does this song represent you? :)