Reflection

So yea just wanted to reflect what I've done throughout the 3 month long holiday after intern. I guess the greatest accomplishment keeping myself motivated to exercise at least 3-4 times a week, and by that I mean I actually set my alarm clock to 9am or 10am (when I sleep quite late the night before or go out the previous day which is most days LOL), got my ass up and got out to the track to run and then back home to do Candice's workouts and Blogilates :D

I don't even know how I kept my motivation up (especially during the 3 weeks leading up to the Social Night where I workout everyday and up my workouts to 2 times a day from 2 weeks before the dinner LOL I was almost falling sick) cuz people usually get bored of their "motivation" or "inspiration" like they constantly change pictures of the girls with hot abs and stuff? Yeah, but I know one thing that remained constant for me was that in my head all I thought was Candice hahaha! Ok not tryna sound creepy but every time I felt like giving up I asked myself " what would Candice do?" "what would she say to you?" and I used what she used to motivate herself which was to tell herself " I'll feel better after a workout", and that's how it went I guess. Even when I was in Taiwan, I told myself 10 mins, even though some idiots might say " you might as well not do it" but I say no, even if it's 10 mins or 20 mins, it beats anyone sitting at the couch any day. And it beats feeling the guilt and discomfort of not getting some adrenaline rush. ;D Plus, once you start to exercise regularly, do you ever have that ticklish or itchy feeling like beneath your skin or flesh (or something, I'm not even sure myself) and like you try to scratch it and it doesn't go away until you actually got down to do some cardio and workout? Yeah that's Type 1 of the discomfort I feel. Type 2 is when I feel so bad like I've let myself down and I've let Candice down as her fan, I mean she'd want her fans to be kept motivated right? haha yea so I will reach a point that I cannot take the guilt and I will go do something, even skipping or whatever if I really "don't have time" and then I'll tell Zihui after how bad I feel that I only did a little bit and she'll still be there and never get sick of giving me encouragement. I love her, sweet baby angel <3 

And I'd also ask Xinfang for advice like how!!! (When I still felt so insecure during the Social Night thing, I don't wanna embarrass myself looking like shit and I wanna look my best) And she'd give me tons of suggestion. And I'm also glad that people can ride on my motivation haha! Like cause I'm so motivated by Candice (even down to when I eat I think of her, come to think of it I think, I think of her 24/7 hahaa whenever I'm not doing anything O.O what sorcery is this??! She even motivates me to play tennis better!), my friends are motivated by me seeing me motivated by Candice hahaha! Xinfang got a skipping rope cause I told her it's fun and works for me when I don't feel like running or swimming :D

Wow, I just vomit all of my thoughts out within minutes haha!