3 down, 4 to go

My long awaited moment is finally here! Hehe! I can finally relax a little and do some online shopping for this Friday's Black Friday Sales! Been so long since I shopped overseas online shops! The only time I shopped was when I bought my Margarita Swimwear! Which I've yet to post about and my swimwear purchase(again), from Moana Bikini and Asos. And the rest is either on carousell or Fayth for Insinyur's SP night.

Just finished my Semicon paper today and it's like pretty... Idk.. screwed? HAHA! And I don't know why but I'm always not acknowledging the fact that when my peers said that they don't know how to do the questions during exams, it usually means that they aren't sure if their working is 100% correct.

Whereas for me, when I say I don't know, means either I really can't even begin to write any shit/ anyhow bomb a formula that probably won't earn much marks LOL!

It's quite shitty cuz that's when I know, my hopes of even getting a B grade is dashed. But I really feel quite upset this sem about the grades I'm gonna get at the end cuz I screwed my finals. Upst cuz I couldn't do justice to my hardwork I put in to understand the concepts very clearly for my midterms. Especially my Semicon and Electro midterms. I got 100% for Semicon and 95% for Electro. But Semicon was mcq luh, and electro was open ended. Both take up 20% of my final grade.

So I'm really quite disappointed that 6 weeks after my midterms, although I remembered the key basic concepts, I can't remember how to approach the questions to solve them.

I guess I will just try harder next sem :/ I don't really have a choice not to try harder anyway, although I am already thinking of a back up plan to not do engineering related stuff. I'm really getting quite sick of this cycle.

I talked about this in my Dayre, I tend to be able to pen out my thoughts there easily haha! Maybe I'll head over to my Dayre and backpost some of my posts from there to here. Just cuz it's easier to see everything in one place.

I really want to do better this sem, also cuz I wanna match up to the Blackhole. haha When I like someone I usually feel inferior to them on like almost every aspect? So I try to not be behind them on something. Like in poly, when I liked P, I studied very hard to get 3.92 gpa just so I could get into Biomed like him but by then /I didn't like him anymore haha! It's a bit sad cuz I wasn't doing it for myself, but I didn't have any direction on what type of engineering I wanted to specialize in, so it was the only way I could get myself to do well.