Today I went to the Hort Park then to watch I AM NUMBER FOUR at Vivo City with Zihui and Ignatius. After the movie, Zihui accompanied me to City Hall for my job interview at Gong Cha.
I AM NUMBER FOUR has officially taken over Burlesque as My Most Favourite Movie Ever. But, the movies in that "position" are always changing because there are A LOT of movies that are #1 to me and I can't decide! I WANT THEM ALL! (okay, back to the start...)
We took bus 97 from the Jurong East Interchange and we missed the right stop so we alighted at the next stop. While we were making our way to the Hort Park bridge, Zihui and I got really freaked out by this really scrawny-looking old man with lots of tattoos over his arms and body, who kept making noises and scaring us!
And I'm possibly the most cowardly person cause I ran straight ahead of the both of them and started walking pissed-fully cause I sorta get angry when I get scared by something. I get real pissed!
Once the old man was out of sight and not following us anymore, I was ever so relieved!
Anyway, I will just skip to two of the things I like best about walking from Hort Park to Mount Faber. :)
There's this Terrace (thing that I really can't recall the full name right now) which I love most because it really doesn't look anything like Singapore! It's like a Secret Castle Garden Terrace that was "hidden"! Much like a small part of the Winsor Castle I visited in England in 2009.
It's totally beautiful and we took lots of photos there. I tried to pose (try to be a "model" D: ) like I was flying but, according to Ignatius, my NGs look better & more natural than the posing ones. And there was one where they asked me to sit on the steps that leads up to the "Secret Terrace" and I really sucked at it cause I didn't know which angle to face/how to position myself so that it essentuates the body lines beautifully/walk gracefully in skyhigh killer heels, etc.
To cut to the chase, I LITERALLY SUCK AT MODELLING! THE ONE THING THAT I WOULD DO ANYTHING TO HAVE IT AS MY CAREER. MY IMPOSSIBLE DREAM JOB. And I sucked at it. But Zihui is really good at it and she has the right figure/expression(fierce glare, Tyra & Coco Rocha would give a thumbs up to) /posture/talent for it. She got everything! If not for her height, she would definitely be scouted for a long time ago and joined one of the reknowned modelling agencies like IMG Models/Elite Modelling Agency.
Right now, I truely believe that, the more I want something, the more I have the love and passion for it. I don't have the goods/talent to bring my passion far enough. Some things are just the way it is, it'll always remain that way cause I was Born This Way. :( Sometimes I feel embarrassed that I love Fashion Models so much, watch all the Fashion Shows and Behind the Scenes of Photoshoots and I still:
#1 Can't get one perfect posed shot
#2 Can't walk in heels gracefully (according to my Mom, etc. It'll take forever to list out)
#3 Can't even demonstrate my knowledge about models, fashion shows, etc through my actions despite myself going on, and on, and probably killing my friends with boredom about my "highly contagious" obsession with models/ modelling/ fashion. Okay, getting personal here and off topic soon. This is how upset & disappointed I am. I just don't possess the "X" Factor for this. Or anythnig else for that matter.
Anyway, I was so thankful that I brought my sandals to change into and not have to wear my skyhigh wedged heels to walk because towards the end of the journey, the path was really steep stepped and crazily uneven. Ignatius walked really fast ahead so I had to support Zihui since she doesn't have spare shoes and to prevent her from almost spraining her ankle several times. Which would be a HUGE problem since her Mom would definitely blame it on me, since I was the only one there and also cause Zihui wasn't allowed to hangout with guys. :( So it would seem like I taught her to lie or whatever, cause somehow or rather I would be held responsible. It's not that I'm trying to avoid takign responsiblity, but i really don't like to take responsibility for somethnig I haven't done/ was not my fault to begin with. Which is equivalent to being accused. But the uneven grounds weren't anticipated at all so I guess it's fine since everyone's safe in the end. :)
So after that, we went to watch I AM NUMBER FOUR, starring Alex Pettyfer!!!!
I was SO EMBARRASSED cause I was the first to walk up to the counter to tell the counter girl what movie we wanted, and I said "3 tickets to I AM NUMBER ONE... OMG! Sorry! I meant I AM NUMBER FOUR!" (laughed it off).
When Zihui and Ignatius found out about my mistake, they burst out into laughter almost instantly! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I didn't even think it was funny at first casue I was being embarrassed but their laughter always make me laugh too!
I love for Number 4 to be my bf ;D and I would love to be Number 6 cause she's really pretty,sexy and cool!
And I'm so so so SO THANKFUL that 2 of the MVP (Most Valuable People) in my life are so enthusiastic and willing to watch the movie with me just because one of the Hotties I adore is in it! :D Thank You guys! :D
The last thing that happened today was the interview. It was a totally easy one, I mean, it's not even considered an interview. It was just submitting the application and clarifying a few details.
And on the application, there was this part " Expected pay: _____ per month" it LITERALLY wrote per MONTH okay. So i wrote $500. But then the "interviewer" cancelled the $500 that I wrote and wrote $5.20 in it's place. Which meant it was supposed to be the expected pay per hour! So shouldn't it be printed as "Expected pay: _____ per hour" ? I have nothing to do with it :D
I was told that I have to undergo a 3-day training and if I pass I get to continue and if I don't, I don't have to start work officially.
And I'm still in a dilema, I always am!
Cause I'm still not all ready yet, to give up the freedom I have to wake up as and when I like and do whatever I want at anytime of the day and not be disciplined! But I should really do something because most of the time I would have nothing to do but recently I'm learning knitting! :D And sewing too! From the internet though.
And the supervisor said something like " you have to be mentally prepared .... a lot of people". I can't really hear most of it since her volume fluctuates so I can't hear some parts clearly and I didn't want to have her repeat herself all over. And that "information" she gave alone is ardy enoguh to make me kinda regret since, I'm not up for anythnig too stressful/hectic! If I can't keep up with the hectic pace, I might not even pass the traning, or even I didpass, I might not survive for more than a week there! T_T
But Fiona said I can withdraw my application even if I passed my training. Which was a relief, cause if I really felt I wasn't up for it, I wouldn't want to waste anymore of their time on me. But I will only feel bad because Fiona was so excited and I gave her 'false" hopes. :(
I hate that I'm so indecisive...ALL THE TIME!!! ...
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