Crazy

WOOHOO! Ok I totally predicted everyone's reactions, like "what?! That's so long ago already!" hahaha! It's almost close to a year since I got my punching bag and I only #FINALLY put it up today.. Cuz my mom wants to be around to supervise the whole drilling process cuz she's scared that the whole house will be filled with "dust". And also cuz we couldn't find a space to sacrifice for my punching bag LOL.

 Anw, I am so loving my sore knuckles HAHAHA! I desperately needed an avenue to vent all of my sadness and anger out, given the current circumstances. So it's exam week and the past week hasn't been great for me, except for when I went for my jogs more regularly (surprisingly).

Too much drama going on, now I know what people mean when they wish they could escape all of this. And this makes me love the beach even more. Sigh.. 

I never understood why people felt that the lives they led were shitty cuz for me I could always find a reason to smile a midst some of the crapy drama. But now I feel like I am less tolerant and more easily emotional? Okay, I have always been emotional, like if I'm happy you can tell, but I am rarely emotional in a sad way, which is what I've been experiencing lately. It's like I can't even hide my sad face.

Am glad I still have a certain friend who will still ask me out to have a decent meal, out of all the new friends I've made so far (over the 3months since uni started). After that incident, and after the drama (on my side) that happened and after what Xinfang hinted me about the bad news that she didn't wanna tell me cuz she's afraid I'll get affected by it... I'm not even sure who I can trust to be my friend anymore. How can someone seem so genuine but actually have so much to hide? 

Starting to feel like I'm a late bloomer when it comes to such situations in life but I guess it's okay.. it's life's entertainment for me maybe? Yes, I can turn something negative to sound kinda fun, I'm jsut like that, despite all the insecurities I have about myself and how dissatisfied I am with the genes I've inherited and basically my appearance (although that does not mean I would want to go under the knife, NEVER, if I can't be the type of beautiful that I perceive to be 'perfect' the natural way, I DON'T WANT IT, simple as that.) 

Anyway, yeah, time to get back to my tutorials, hope I'll wake up tmr in a body as hot as Candice's and an angelic face like hers hahah! FreakyFriday Felicia's Edition.

Ps: DON'T GIVE UP! DON'T GIVE IN!! It's one last PUSH FOR TWO WEEKS FELI! And then you can got to all the ballet classes you want and do all the boxing you want, and long jogs for your liss cardio and stop being a Ball (lol class inside joke) and be 'rewarded' with watching the VSFS 2014 LIVE!!! :D in peace~ GOGOGO!!! CANDICE IS ROOTING FOR YOU! HAHAHAHA!
"Nothing worth anything is easy!"