Where is my trade off?!

[Peep into my convo with Abbey today]

A: Is it just me or the guys that have a high chance of liking you all the same one... people say something then start to act all weird!!

F: YA IKR, I tell u, I'm cursed. 

So, what I don't understand is, if I'm already cursed with such a horrible curse then why aren't I pretty and hot yet??!!

Rmb I said, if I had to sacrifice something big and equally impt in return for granting my wish to be pretty and smart and hot (haha!) it would be to be to not find my partner in life right??

SO WHY AM I NOT GRANTED MY WISH NOW THAT THIS SACRIFICE IS TRUE!!!

A: Obviously you are hot and pretty  Just that you dont know only 

And i tell you, your wish wouldnt make you any happier de uhh!

Everyone else knows~

F: T^T My wish would make me happier!! Hahaha

Feels like my life is a joke to the Universe/Stars/Fairygodmother/CandiceNiangNiang(LOL)/whatever that hears my wishes :/

Ps: I need to learn to shut my mouth on certain opinions :(( I think Sean is kinda annoyed at what I said abt his ootd T^T even though(I'm sure he isn't petty) he said he don't care but it feels like there's 0.000001% annoyance 😅😰 I know he will probably never know abt this blog or see this but please don't be mad!! I am really bad with words T^T Things are really getting more crappy these days, first Andreas isn't really talking to me anymore, like idk what happened?? It feels like I did or say something wrong but the fact is I don't even know what, or recall anything. So now I have 1 less friend, and I have no one to eat with me when XF isn't around T^T. Then now, I can't shut my stupid mouth from saying things I don't even mean for it to be a bad thing. :( WHYYYYYYY! 

Psps: okay y'know what, I just re-read whatever I said, and it's not even offensive la! So I don't think he's mad, but if it is then I'm really *speechless*