Like I'll take 3 days to do 1 tutorial! And even when I planned what I'm gonna do on my free day (finally), I still won't stick to it regardless. Instead, I'll start thinking of stuff to Google about like how much Candice eats(to which even though I found the answers I'm still continue googling it every other day, you can try checking my history.), what new workouts she's been doing, what other sports does she do/ is taking on. I'm just like a super silly coconut.
And it's back again, the phase where I wanna change my url/username. I'm always having this problem. I wished I had a better name? I hate to say this, cuz it's the name my parents gave me but my name is so fucking common! I hate feeling un-unique but it's like even though I don't feel that way it's hard to think otherwise sometimes when it's staring in your face, "your name is too common". Seriously, Felicia is a super common name in SG, and my chinese name too. Gosh my whole name is just too damn common, I can't even use it as a username. It looks ugly, and plain :(
Oh yes, to add on the list of reasons why I don't like my name, there's this thing going around lately. Just search "Bye Felicia" and watch the YouTube video of Nicole Ritchie on Ruan Seacrest's show and you'll get it. "Felicia is just some random, that you do not care about." Ouch much? Hahah! I'm not taking this seriously, but of all the names in the world it had to be that?? 😂😂
So yes, I'm finding a way to make a new url, I always wanna put "candy" in my name so that I can relate myself to candice(LOL, lame I know, but afterall I look up to her a lot), so yeah, hence my IG username @candyflaws. But I'm a bit shy and sometimes embarrassed to explain to my friends the meaning behind it. YES, there's a meaning behind it, it's not just simply a play on the words "Candy Floss". It's basically meaning, that I am the sum of all Candice's flaws(if she even has any). Yes, it sounds so #emokid already which is why I would feel embarrassed in a way. Cuz, lets be honest, if you know some kid is like super emo, you'd probably be turned off to even try to begin a friendship with them. And I really do not want that.
Since candyflaws is taken on blogger domain, I am still not satisfied with my url HAHA! HMM.. HOWWWWW??
And I need to find a way to sneak the present into S's bag so that my friends won't see haha. I just hate it when people start stirring shit and make my friendships awkward, I guess I wouldn't be awkward, but the other party usually ends up being real awkward.
Add on:---
Been stuffing myself silly with CNY goodies over the weekend, can't seem to stop myself T^T My tummy hurts from eating so much junk, but my tastebuds crave the taste :(( And I only realised that I haven't been drinking much water that's why I keep chomping!! >:( 'm feeling real emo now, after realising that all angles of my wrist looks like the same thickness??!! WTF! So because of that realization, I didn't have any appetite to eat dinner, and I'm more irritable. Like while I was driving back to hall, every single thing that came out of my mom's mouth I get so angst. But I know it's just me, and I feel bad.In the end, she didn't have dinner cuz of me, but I think she'll find something to eat later or probably go out with my brother for supper or something, It's like the same feeling in primary school again, when I eat I feel irritated, when I don't eat, I'm moody. WTF do I want?! GOSH! I really wish I can stop caring so much about what I eat already! >:(
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