Still.. Vote for me please? :D I'd share the money with you guys haha!-> (Oh who am I kidding, no one passes here! =.=) http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10150177182278001&set=a.10150177172598001.301262.70610443000&type=1&ref=nf
Here's the photo, brace yourselves!
I look really shape-less here! T_T I think my eyes are failing me. When I look in the mirror, I can see my "S" line but the photo doesn't "see" it! D':
Anyway, I can't believe it took me 17 years to come up with this link! My name LITERALLY means "happy" and Pink colour represents Happiness! So duh!!! My name equals to pink! Told Abbey (aka Zihui) about it like a few weeks back. Hahaha! I can be so full of shit these days.
And check out my new phone wallpaper! PERFECT is the only word to describe it! :D At least it is to me.
Oh! And and, I realise that my style of blogging is blogging as if someone is reading it... Even though I don't intend to publicize it at all. But if anyone does come across this, I don't mind them reading it either, just so long as they don't judge me because of what I write... IF YOU LOVE TO JUDGE PEOPLE SO MUCH, THEN GET CERTIFIED & GO TO COURT!!!! HAHAHA! (Lame inside joke of mine. :P)
Alright apart from this... I think I'm really stressed up, like I get pissed off over minor things... No no, it's really not minor, it's HUGE!!!!! Cause I absolutely hate this quality in people. Cause I used to be like that. And ever since my brother criticized me that all I ever do is make excuses about why I can't accomplish anything, like Ballet/Slimming down, and Ignatius always said "If you think you are FAT or are unhappy about something, don't sit there doing nothing but whining cause then you deserve to be FAT, etc" and also my Mom keeps telling me how I don't have passion/motivation/drive to get/do things I really want and that I'm a disappointment to her.. I really start to hate seeing these qualities in others. Or even qualities that are related. Because it reminds me of who I really am and I absolutely HATE IT!
This is why I always think I'm ugly too.
Like, hello?! (Okay, I'm about to go crazy so whatever I write now, no one will understand except myself cause I'm gonna miss out links) You wanna transfer school/do well but you wana choose the easy way out?! If you don't get the outcome you expect, then you totally deserve it cause you aren't sincere about it & also cause you don't REALLY want it that much because otherwise you won't mind breaking your legs to get it & you will take responsibility to learn well in order to do well instead of sleeping in class! Although I used have some of such traits but I'm making an effort to get rid of them and that's why I'm feeling better about myself as the days go by. That's why, when I see people displaying such traits, I get so pissed because I thought that I was already the worst and I couldn't imagine there were people who are even worse than I am. And the saddest part is that they think it's fine to continue living with that kind of attitude instead of trying to improve and become a better person.
PHEW! Okay, end of rant. :D
Sososo much better now.. You know sometimes I secretly hope the ones I'm refferring to will see this and realise something about themselves. Not that I am perfect, but things like this, you can change! It's not like physical appearance which you can't change!
You can look so charming on the outside, but if your attitude towards life sucks and your personality is so bland/annoying, when people look at you they will get this irksome feeling which they overwrite it and make it simple by saying "He/She is ugly" (Ugly referring to personality, not physical appearance)
My point is..Actually, I have a lot of points to all that I said earlier.. I don't even know where to start. hahhaha! Okay, go figure it out on your own.. If you're dying to know then I will tell you Granny's story! :D
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